so, let's face it, it has been a MONTH since i last posted. that is so crazy. between being sick twice in the last month, mid-terms, and spring break, i have been drowning in chaos. the reality is that my diet has also been in chaos. i have been re-reading "intuitive eating," and though i am trying to abide by the theories, i am also trying to eat more protein and less sugar in my diet. our grandparents who grew up on farms can tell us...its not the bacon that makes you fat, its the bread and sweets. haha. my great-grandmother was all too willing to point out why i was fat, but seemed to overlook her own genetic input. ha!
i have to admit i have had a really hard time not wanting to eat "comfort" food all the time. i have been sick. i am totally stressed about finding a job. i am sooooo over school. i miss my family and friends. all of these things have made me want to eat ice cream, chocolate and grilled cheese sandwiches. to be honest, i have totally given in most of this month, but with summer and a change of scenery on the horizon, i am really trying to be more balanced. i am also taking a lot more time to cook lately. i know that i am eating healthier when i am cooking. i eat more fruits and vegetables and i plan ahead.
i have also been thinking a lot about how much airbrushing actually happens in celebrity photos. i see so many super svelte actresses and models all over magazines and tv and my computer, but i have to wonder how much of what i am seeing is real. who is exaggerating the people who airbrush the photos or the people that tell us how much photos are airbrushed? i know i am never going to look like a victoria's secret model in my swimsuit, but i would take some solace in knowing that the victoria's secret models don't really look like that in their bikinis either.
the last thing that has been on my mind this month is how we automatically equate skinny with healthy. now i know that there are things i still need to keep working on to get healthier, but i do not understand why skinny=healthy in our culture. skinny could mean eating disorder. skinny could mean cocaine addiction. skinny could mean smoking instead of eating. i think that most people would SAY that they do not equate skinny with healthy, but at the end of the day they want to look like the skinny person on the magazine...the HEALTH magazine. who has probably been airbrushed to look "healthier."
okay...getting off my soapbox...putting it away...headed to bed.
So.....first of all, missing you. Second, praying for jobs. Did you hear from chaplaincy in Austin? And, third...continuing the conversation about air brushing & such. Occasionally we watch Dancing With the Stars (embarrassed) and I have been stupidly awed by their fitness, etc...I guess I've thought they simply got up off their ever-widening rear-ends and taped the show. My first awakening was the other day when I saw a magazine headline talking about all the work (& SURGERY) that takes place before they ever go on DWTS. Of course!! I'm so naive. It's never EXACTLY as it seems. Remember that you are beautiful. You are a daughter of the Holy God. He has a plan for you and YOU will contribute greatly to his design. Love you!
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