we have to start somewhere...

so this is where i am starting. i have decided that the best way for me to actually get support and be held accountable is to blog this journey. for as long as i can remember, i have wanted to lose weight. i have wanted to be able to go into a store and find cute clothes that i feel comfortable in. i have wanted to go to the pool and not be obsessed about the horror of having to be in a bathing suit. so this is the beginning of my journey toward a different lifestyle. much of this journey also has to do with health. i am not getting younger, and i know that diabetes, high blood pressure and heart disease all run in my family. i do not want to be affected with any of these ailments. so many times i lay in bed at night and think: tomorrow is the day. tomorrow i will be more motivated to make this change, but the reality is, each day i am still trapped in my own head. i need support, i need someone in the world to give a damn whether i exercised or not. i want someone to care about what i have eaten and how it affects me. so in this blog i will be talking about many things. i will be telling you what i am eating. i will be telling you about my exercise. i will be telling you about my feelings. the fact of the matter is, i am an extrovert in the truest sense of the word. i get my energy from others. i need people. i need you. i process my thoughts and feelings externally and i need dialogues. i am far too often stuck inside my own head. i need to change my life: my mind, my habits, my body and my techniques. blessings to you! -t